chur.

其實真係chur得有d過分。

當我以為midterm/ tests/ essays 交得七七八八，
前幾日發現下星期一又有份2000字要交。

當我以為agm完左、正式上左莊，
其實又要為逼到埋身既inaug而忙碌。

其實我只係想有一日完全空閒，
可以做自己想做既野。

點解好似無可能?

疲憊。

很累。
累得不想思考不想應對不想上學。
最近都沒有娛樂的時間。
簡簡單單想看部電影也難。
為什麽要這樣犧牲私人時間？

我也不明白自己在幹什麽。
值得嗎？
不知道。
已經不能走回頭路了吧。

至少跟你們一起笑聲總是不絕。

好不容易

好不容易過了mock cam。

46個小時12個人1條心面對n屆上莊。

壓力比自己想像中大。

身為其中1位3C，理應對所有活動的設備、場地以及學生會內務守則瞭如指掌。

可惜我不太做得到。

感覺自己令正上莊失望了。

也意識到自己跟其餘11個人溝通不足。

但在過程中得到的堅實支持真的很大很多。

無論是post-its還是其他人在cam inaug的4個小時內幫忙答問題，都令我很感動。

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh but im exhausted mentally and physically.

但我找到了mock cam的意義。

我找到了上莊對自己的意義。

agm 會是另一大挑戰。

做到!!!!!!!!

最後晚餐。

記得第一次聽到這首歌，是ocamp的第二個晚上。
那一刻的感動實在難忘。
我暗自跟當時的自己許下承諾，將來感到難受、寂寞，抑或迷失方向時，
要重溫當刻的霎時感動。
要記得，"為求沒有帶著遺憾活到終點"。

這個月發生了很多事。
生活快得來不及好好反思。
再聽這首歌，已是一個多月後。

你的離去或許是一個提醒。
要記得當初對自己的承諾，要為自己的選擇負責。

去吧，我會永遠珍惜你。

.

心裡穿了一個洞。
想拼命的找些甚麼填補。
卻愈填補愈空虛。
愈實在亦愈虛無。

上天總愛帶走一些好人。
我不相信上帝。
然而，面對死亡時卻禁不住奢望會有一天跟離去的人重聚。
各基督徒朋友都不約而同在面書寫下"在天家見"。
那我們，又能在何時相見呢?

你對教學的熱誠、執著感動了我。
你為很多徘迴在絕望之際的年輕人，重新點燃希望。

i know your spirit will never die.
you will forever be in my heart.
rest in peace, ms ngai.

搏盡背後。

hku is an amazing place and it opens up a lot of opportunities.
the best part is how you get to meet many different people.

however, it is not easy being here.
especially now that i have chosen to take up something that requires a lot of effort and dedication.

since you are meeting different people, you have to be an active talker or respondent at all times.
since you are taking up so much responsibility, you are also sacrificing your time with family and friends out of the hku circle.

at times, i just want to find a companion that allows me to truly be myself.
one that i do not have to force conversations with.
one that i feel comfortable with.

i wish you were here.
you are rarely here but your mere appearance lightens up my day.
however, you are out of my reach.
you are so far away from my life.
but i can't help adoring you.
your words become my strength to go on at times of despair.
i often ask myself in predicament, what would you do if you were me?
you are basically my rock.

you will never know everything that i feel.
but i just need to see you more.
just a little bit more...

:)

im proud to say im now part of the proposed cabinet of english society 2013-2014 session :)

it all started from the ocamp that i joined.
i love everything about it.
the people are amazing and very friendly.
the games are really enjoyable and successfully connected all the jomates together.
the atmosphere was playful yet we all gained something during that 3 days.
by the end of the camp, i became determined to be an executive committee member of english society.

then we had to go through the recruitment process and interviews which can be nerve wreaking at times.

and finally, the result came today.
im more than surprised and beyond ecstatic.
this marks the start of something unknown yet very exciting.
it proves how you have to step out of your comfort zone at times to get what you want.