最後晚餐。

記得第一次聽到這首歌，是ocamp的第二個晚上。
那一刻的感動實在難忘。
我暗自跟當時的自己許下承諾，將來感到難受、寂寞，抑或迷失方向時，
要重溫當刻的霎時感動。
要記得，"為求沒有帶著遺憾活到終點"。

這個月發生了很多事。
生活快得來不及好好反思。
再聽這首歌，已是一個多月後。

你的離去或許是一個提醒。
要記得當初對自己的承諾，要為自己的選擇負責。

去吧，我會永遠珍惜你。

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心裡穿了一個洞。
想拼命的找些甚麼填補。
卻愈填補愈空虛。
愈實在亦愈虛無。

上天總愛帶走一些好人。
我不相信上帝。
然而，面對死亡時卻禁不住奢望會有一天跟離去的人重聚。
各基督徒朋友都不約而同在面書寫下"在天家見"。
那我們，又能在何時相見呢?

你對教學的熱誠、執著感動了我。
你為很多徘迴在絕望之際的年輕人，重新點燃希望。

i know your spirit will never die.
you will forever be in my heart.
rest in peace, ms ngai.

搏盡背後。

hku is an amazing place and it opens up a lot of opportunities.
the best part is how you get to meet many different people.

however, it is not easy being here.
especially now that i have chosen to take up something that requires a lot of effort and dedication.

since you are meeting different people, you have to be an active talker or respondent at all times.
since you are taking up so much responsibility, you are also sacrificing your time with family and friends out of the hku circle.

at times, i just want to find a companion that allows me to truly be myself.
one that i do not have to force conversations with.
one that i feel comfortable with.

i wish you were here.
you are rarely here but your mere appearance lightens up my day.
however, you are out of my reach.
you are so far away from my life.
but i can't help adoring you.
your words become my strength to go on at times of despair.
i often ask myself in predicament, what would you do if you were me?
you are basically my rock.

you will never know everything that i feel.
but i just need to see you more.
just a little bit more...

:)

im proud to say im now part of the proposed cabinet of english society 2013-2014 session :)

it all started from the ocamp that i joined.
i love everything about it.
the people are amazing and very friendly.
the games are really enjoyable and successfully connected all the jomates together.
the atmosphere was playful yet we all gained something during that 3 days.
by the end of the camp, i became determined to be an executive committee member of english society.

then we had to go through the recruitment process and interviews which can be nerve wreaking at times.

and finally, the result came today.
im more than surprised and beyond ecstatic.
this marks the start of something unknown yet very exciting.
it proves how you have to step out of your comfort zone at times to get what you want.

fork in the road.

once upon a time when we ask if that must be the way.
now i stand here facing the fork in the road.
befogged as ever, i took my chance and turn to the forest which i thought i knew what was there.

miles to go and i see nothing.
miles to go and i lose something off my arms.
miles to go and i tripped and slipped.

turn left, turn right.
should i move on or go back?

yet i saw the dim light ahead.
torn as i was, i kept going on the road least traveled.

where will it lead to and when will it end?
for so many unanswered questions, i kept going and allow fate takes the wheels.

the great escape.

loney, loney girl.
engulfed by the constantly imbuled darkness
after a steady spiral downwards, inwards, outwards.
that lost soul, that lost dream.
and too the noises and scurrying life outside
did nothing to grace the heart of solitude.

close your eyes and drift away.
oblivious to the crimson package split asunder by the god of hearsay.
oh loney, loney girl.
escape from this lonely, lonely place.