all i want.

And too many times, I have wanted
To turn around and walk away
Knowing deep inside
You can't provide what I need from you anyway

But do you know
It doesn't change
The way I feel about you at the end of the day
Because I know that all I want is what you got
All I want is what you got

contradictions.

i dont wanna lose control
i just wanna touch your soul
I do, I do

I just wanna hold you when the goings tough
I just wanna love you when your not enough
I just wanna give you all that I can give
I do, I do

bitch.

cupid is a bitch.
love is a bitch.

it happens at the most inappropriate time and on the most unsuitable person.

and i will never be able to escape from being its slave.
it drugs me with temporal happiness and kills me softly with jealousy and dread.

it manipulates me with emotions.

im nothing but a puppet under the name of love.

but this time, i wont let it leads me.
becoz i wont let myself label it as love.
i wont allow myself to indulge in false hope and idealization.

this is the new me today.
not 2 years ago.