anger

anger and frustration has become my friends these days.
the fact that i can't hv enough rest nor find motivation or time to study is bothering me much more than i can handle.
ugh.
hope i can initiate a change after bazaar.

present

everything that we know of slowly slip out of our grip yet we refuse to believe that is the case.
what the majority of us do now doesn't make sense if we are fully aware of the shortness of our lives.

we waste time sitting down watching bad movies for hours.
we spent many waking moments reminiscing our past or anticipating the future.
we do not grasp the opportunities as we see them but instead hesitate and before we know it, they are gone.

we rarely focus on the present, which ironically, is what we really have.
we never enjoy the present moment as it is - missed it when trying to capture it with a camera, when we are lost in our other thoughts, when we can't look past all the hustle and bustle of our lives to enjoy life as it really is.

this is the problem of our generation.
this is the underlying reason for my persistant hollowness.
and that, is something that i need to work on my whole life.