back from the wild camp.

不得不承認我是一個嬌生慣養的城市人。
一去到野外，一點求生技能也沒有。
幸然有4位同行的男同學，事事為我們2個女同學打點。
從起爐燒烤 (事源浪茄營地的3個燒烤爐也被人霸佔，我們不得不用appear out of nowhere的渠蓋自製燒烤爐)，到紮營等等，都由他們代勞，實在感到不好意思。

可說是破了最長燒烤時間的紀錄。
從5時燒到10時，最後卻依賴男同學們用cook set烹調的肉食才能飽肚...
晚上於海灘觀星(此行之目的)，雖然星星出現的時間不長，但也算是我一生人看到最多星星的一次。
不過最難忘的應是與多位男同學談天說地，還驚訝於他們願意推心置腹說心底話。

回到營裡聊到凌晨2時，小睡約3個小時。
5時被雷聲嚇醒。
之後不斷傾盆大雨，還打雷閃電，曾一度擔心被困於營地無法離開。
幸好到了早上天朗氣清，吃過早餐便連忙收拾行裝離開。

可是雨過天青後，天氣變得極之悶熱，一點風也沒有。
行山途中非常辛苦。
但捱過後，便有一種難以言喻的成功感。

總結而言，還是一個非常難忘的經驗。

the journey has come to an end.

dse is officially over as the examiner of english oral made her final announcement.

im so glad it has finally come to an end.

the journey is difficult.
i didnt have a pretty start with me crying over my chinese oral examination.
chinese written papers are challenging but i managed to show what i have got.
english papers are disastrous as i got my monthly pain during the days and as a result blew writing which i had very high expectation beforehand.
mathematics has never been my best friend and i sucked as usual but strangely feel that i have quite a chance of getting a 5.
chemistry papers are much more difficult to handle than last year's papers but i strongly hope i mangaed to secure level 5 or above with paper 2.
biology papers are mostly easy with me committing quite a few stupid mistakes and therefore im not really sure i have any shot at a star.
bafs was my last written exam and i just simply gave up on myself.
do i regret? maybe but it is not my favourite or most important subject so i do not really care.
and finally, english oral today.
it is nice to have a little competition going on and i have to admit my competitor was better in some ways but i believe i wasn't outshone by that much.
personal response question is difficult and i just hope they don't deduct my marks.

so that sums up what i had gone through last month.
i absolutely do not wish to go through it again because it can really make your passion and your spirit die out.
luckily, i still have my passion glowing stronger than ever and thats what keeps me strong throughout the journey.

now, it is time to turn to a new page.

it is over...

it is over.

but i honestly do not think i did good in any subjects.
especially bafs today which i basically gave up on myself.

ahhhhhhhhhh can u please let me get into law :\
i did try my freaking best in every subject (except bafs maybe)

it would be nice if dreams do come true.

好 攰 。

身邊不少人都正在享受自由的生活。
還有友人特別致電給我，說她剛剛看完電影（！！）

我呢，還有一科（！！！！）。

身體狀況讓我很想放棄。
今日考完試後躺在床上什麽也不想做。
累積已久的疲憊開始把我的戰鬥力減低到危險水平。

但我亦不甘心放棄。
雖然我超級不喜歡accounting，但
如果連5級也得不到，大概會辜負老師一直以來的教導。

啊啊啊啊啊啊，好累啊啊啊啊啊啊。

還有2科。

今日考完chemistry，睡到天昏地暗什麽也不顧。

很累。真的很累。

跟chemistry糾纏了那麽多年，總算可以放下了。

個人對這一科好感不大，也不明白自己當初為什麽會選修這科，還因為它第一次走去補習。
（好吧 其實是因為以為理科比文科易取高分的奇怪心態）

放下了。如釋重負。
如果得到好成績，補習老師的功勞佔不少。

今晚繼續上路。
去為biology努力。

5天後，才開始跟我最最最最不喜歡的bafs打鬥。

話說，今天看報紙。
考評局竟把bafs課程範圍減15%。
你也太後知後覺了吧。
課程的闊度根本非一般學生能掌握。
還記得有多少人正正因為這樣而在修讀一年後紛紛去遞drop科紙。
就只剩下我們8個傻傻的女孩子還留守死線，堅持不放棄...

i will just fool myself for 2 more weeks.

聽說前面有一大片梅林，只要勇往直前就能夢想成真。
儘管理性告訴我這或許只是謊話。

還有2個星期。

blew it.

how does it feel when u r really confident about sth and u never failed to excel at it before but for one time, and the most important time, u blew it?

oh yes. this is how it feels.
shit im getting farther and farther away from my freaking lawyer dream.
how could i blow english writing?
it used to be my stage of showing my proficiency.

could it be not that bad?
probably. maybe.
i will only find that out in july.

nevertheless, i still have 2 English papers to go.
they have to save my freaking stars.

i hate you english.
u made me happy and now u r betraying me.