recovery.

what does it matter that my love could not keep her. 
the night is shattered and she is not with me. 
love is so short, forgetting is so long.




i will recover. im certain. even quicker than the last time.
somehow, through all the heartbreaks, i realize love and possession is different.


there will be days that i find myself surrounded by strangers feeling everyone is happier than i do.
there will be nights that i wake up holding my phone, desperately seeking for even a slight vibration.
but i will be good.


however, no, i will no longer be the same.
nothing stays the same. no one will ever stay for u. no words have a lasting meaning.
people change and there is no way to stop them.
because like them, u are changing too.


life may as well be a confusing maze.
we meet in the middle of somewhere. and leave with nothing but a distant receding figure.
we will never have any idea about what is behind the turning corner.


at least for now, i have you.
8 of you that means the world to me.
all of you that pushes me to go on.
walk. run. cry. smile.
this is life.

life goes by.

有些事情有些人就是不容許太執著太在乎。
也許，你早已在不知什麽時候在我指間溜走。

but life goes by in a blink of an eye.
壞了 就該淘汰。

反正，人本來就是寂寞的。
根本沒改變過。

有你們就好了。
尤其是接到一個電話就盡快跑出來的你。

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argh.

今天過得很辛苦。
每個月都來拜訪我的麻煩事又來了。


午飯時間，只吃得下一個奶黃包。
上去時，那些樓梯就像在我腳下融化了似的。


之後account堂，在友人和老師半推半就下去了sick room。
在那裡，攬著暖水袋睡到放學。


其實明天有2個測驗要溫習。
但根本專心不了。
唉，女人之苦。

officially missing u.

今天在art festival的open stage上聽到這首歌。
很喜歡。



all i hear is raindrops - 碰巧今天真的下雨。
im officially missing u - 又真的很想你。

敏感。

其實我不太喜歡夏天。
一到這個季節，全身的敏感處就開始痕癢。
手臂啦，臉啦，還有左眼眼皮。連鼻敏感也比平時嚴重10倍。
不過算了，只有忍著不去搔。
否則弄得紅紅腫腫、被身邊友人問我十幾次怎麼了，只會是我自作自受。


昨晚睡不著周圍騷擾別人。
聽著友人在播一首歌，好像聽過，又覺得莫名的安心 - 是這幾天難得的感覺。
原來就是這首。

題外話，昨天才發現友人的聲音很好聽 囧


冷靜幾天吧。
大家都需要空間的。

煎熬

形同枯木  沒了氣力

有的  存的  剩下的
只有 那絲一直緊抱的
有刺的 掙扎的 疼的

也許  火候不足
一熬再熬


等待  一個人

撕裂

將我撕裂 
扯住衣袖  拉著領子  拖住頭髮 
爭奪著的  是現實 是情感
或是 叫做孤獨的代名詞  
抻動神經  拉緊  又拽搖
隱隱作痛  嗅到危險的血腥 
直到血肉橫飛