glee broke my heart.

nobody said it was easy.

although the episode is named "The Break-up", and i had already prepared myself for seeing finchel's end,
i didnt expect klaine and brittana to break up also.

i creid like a baby when blaine performed his teary acoustic "teenage dream".
my heart stopped beating when santana sang the supposedly sweet "mine".
tears keep streaming down my face when all the couples appeared again and sang the most heartbreaking "the scientist".

just why! britana's breakup doesnt even make sense!
yes santana smiled at a girl a little longer - that isnt a reason for all they had gone through the past seasons!!
santana fighting for brittney, santana forced into coming out etc etc..
they hv always been there for each other!

AND! blaine has always been the perfect boyfriend for kurt! how on earth would he cheat?
i know kurt is not with him in ohio, but they hv the strongest relationship of all!

:'(

stop taking people for granted.

what i learnt from the disaster earlier and the news i received today is that
we should really stop taking people for granted.

i know. it happens. it all seems so natural.
its like we are all wired to getting used to things and later also assuming people as a part of our daily habit.
becuz if we didnt, it is likely we'd be stressed out of our minds every second of the day.

but it is a paradox.
when something big happens and you realize you may lose something you always have,
you would want to stop taking people for granted yet it is really difficult due to our nature.

however, that doesnt mean there arent actions we can take everyday to make sure we are always trying our best appreciating things in life.

i think the most important thing of all is being conscious.
notice what we are doing right now and whats around you everyday.

they were so consistent that we made it the wallpaper of our lives.

bring them out of the background that we are so used to.
for example, in my case, be conscious that i can go to sku everyday, seeing my favourite friends and teachers in the world and being accepted as exactly who i am.

if we dont stop taking things for granted, life will probably throw us a grenade so we will.
and by then, it would be too late to realize the wake up call.

領悟。

那刻，以為自己已經放下了的情緒一湧而出。
傷心過後，醒覺我一直把自己當作愛情悲劇中的主角。
一直，都在自怨自艾。 

其實，I deserve better。
沒有人欣賞我，我來欣賞自己。
堅持信念，做好自己，總會有對的人欣賞。

沒有人愛我，我來愛自己。

2012 同志遊行

今年同志遊行好像比上年還要大型。

從維園出發呢。

但我不去了。

一是因為dse，二是個人無聊的糾結問題，

三是觀乎自己認識的所謂同志友人當中，沒有人是我想跟他一起去，而他又願意跟我去的。

下年大家考完dse後，我會組一個直朋友團一起去。

純粹暫時不想碰這個圈子，考完試後才算。

原來都差不多一年了。

獨

孤獨病作怪。
身在人群仍寂寞到不行。
或許到某天接受了孤獨，就會成就獨立。

i will dress nice, i will look good, i will be dancing alone.
i will laugh, i will get drunk, i will take somebody home.

2012 legco election.

港島 
很支持同志的何秀蘭總算成功保有一席。 
但陳淑莊就很可能因為選舉策略錯誤，即使名單得票眾多仍未能獲選。 
唉呀。 i will miss tanya in the legco :|  

新界東 
長毛高票當選，恐同怪黃成智出局。 
實在大快人心。
 且此區泛民比上屆奪多2席，算是泛民最成功的選區。 

新界西 
余若薇跟tanya情況差不多，只差800多票而已! 
真可惜!

九龍西 
不出所料，老鼠梁美芬配票成功，力保一席。 
幸好毛孟靜也成功獲選，泛民建制維持三對二。

九龍東 
新增的1席，竟然落入謝偉俊手中! 
泛民分拆的多張名單，明顯策略失敗! 

建制地區直選新增至17席，泛民稍跌一席至18席。 
民主黨是大輸家! 民心可見! 
今天就為泛民默哀吧。

UPDATED ON 11/9
慢必出櫃! 實在太興奮了，是本港第一個公開出櫃的議員!
希望他可以把性傾向歧視條例帶入議會討論，爭取同志權益!
超勇敢! so proud of him!

ies.

"社會要持續健全的發展，就必須要有健康的下一代，而傳統婚姻制度是唯一的方法能確保孩子成長時，享受只有父母能帶來得無可取代的益處。"

oh my god.  對得明光人本書耐，就黎比人洗腦了。
究竟我幾時先可以嘔完份萬幾字既ies -_-


2/9 updated.

我錯了。
萬幾字都ko唔到份野。
仲有4份1未打。
can someone throw me into the river?