fork in the road.

once upon a time when we ask if that must be the way.
now i stand here facing the fork in the road.
befogged as ever, i took my chance and turn to the forest which i thought i knew what was there.

miles to go and i see nothing.
miles to go and i lose something off my arms.
miles to go and i tripped and slipped.

turn left, turn right.
should i move on or go back?

yet i saw the dim light ahead.
torn as i was, i kept going on the road least traveled.

where will it lead to and when will it end?
for so many unanswered questions, i kept going and allow fate takes the wheels.

the great escape.

loney, loney girl.
engulfed by the constantly imbuled darkness
after a steady spiral downwards, inwards, outwards.
that lost soul, that lost dream.
and too the noises and scurrying life outside
did nothing to grace the heart of solitude.

close your eyes and drift away.
oblivious to the crimson package split asunder by the god of hearsay.
oh loney, loney girl.
escape from this lonely, lonely place.

bedazzled.

the scenes replays, as if the rays of sunshine touching on the heartstrings.
the electric twists, embarking the start of something unknown.
the laughs, thumping the earth and echoing around and around.

bedazzled but peace remains.
and how i wish time to stand still, time to stop creeping away.

chur life begins.

23號入細o
25號出camp
26號玩o day
27號入大o
29號出camp
30/31號gathering
1號action q interview
2號第一日返學

好似chur左少少。

hku :)

hku here we go!

i have looked into the common core that we have to study in the first 3 yrs.
the courses are simply awesome!!!!
i want to study courses abt sexuality and gender, forsenic science, moralities and ethics so badly ._.
i wanna join the hku queer alliance.
i wanna live in lung wah street residential colleges.
i wanna meet new people through orientation camp.

i just cant wait to start NOW!

excited.

i have just done my interview for cuhk english faculty.
the professors are great but i still kinda regret appearing too ambitious (??)
maybe i should have been more humble but never mind.
a girl who also had an interview told me only marginal cases are interviewed which scared the sh*t out of me.
i kinda thought it was a pretty safe choice.
never mind :\

my first choice is hku ba and i have been super excited  abt it.
maybe im not ready for law - yet.
i hope i will be after 4 years.

anyways im so glad i did not put cityu law as my first choice.
a lot of people are glad too - my teachers, my parents and my relatives.
it really has a not-so-good reputation and i always think i dun belong at cityu.

it is unpredictable that i would choose such a path.
but i feel like im on the right track for the first time in many years :)

dream that never comes true.

it was ridiculously unreal.
i did not expect at all to get the lowest and the highest grade in the components of a single subject.
(overall grade still stinks)
why is it chinese?
why?
i was more than shocked.
i still couldn't accept it.

as for english, while many of my friends managed to secure two stars, i got 1 only. so what was the use of the english prize? to remind me how i lost my most important battle?

as for other subjects, i got what i expected yet still has an unsatisfied feeling in my gut.

dse doesn't define me. i know i know.
but it still hurts to see what i dreamt abt shattered in pieces.

i just hope i still have a shot at cityu law.